Mother Mary said to me the other day:
Be at peace with all your feelings now, including your feisty ones. Remember the women around the fire. (Opening of “Mirari.”)
I do rather like my feisty feelings. To discover that, I had to first reject victimhood, which I carried for a long time. It helped me tremendously when I recently remembered, or maybe better said, “realized” the connection between victimhood and the bitterness of the heart. Feisty feelings have an energy that helps me cast off what could be called the “habit” of the victim.
I’m speaking of this because a very good friend of mine, Christie Lord, spoke the word “victim” to me the other day. I was telling her of the way in which I responded to a certain situation, and she said, “Mari, don’t be a victim. Just state what you want to state and be done with it.”
Suddenly, in that moment, I realized that I had fallen back into an old habit. I didn’t need to stay there. I could, and would, speak my truth. I’ve heard those words before—even in the midst of confrontations: Just say it! Whatever it is! Spit it out! But I’d not heard them alongside the word “victim.” Maybe I needed the word “victim” so that I could hear the way I sound. So that I could identify the underlying feeling.
How could we better (and more quickly) “hear ourselves?” Catch ourselves in our lifelong patterns or habits? How do we do it without good friends to draw our attention to what we can’t see? Many of us, women particularly I think, have had this issue. We feel bad about what we say, and equally bad about what we can’t say. We have stop signs up all over the place.
Victim is a stop sign.
Welcome the friends who will tell you when you “sound” like a victim. You are very likely not “being” a victim but are only caught in an old habit. Familiar situations can do that to us. They draw us, like an unconscious memory. We find ourselves saying things we don’t mean, because we’re feeling in a way we thought we had abandoned.
Look on these opportunities kindly. Each of them helps us to see what we need to see, to abandon the ways we used to be. They are not our truth, but only our habit.
The patterns of the new will begin to arise naturally
when you deny the patterns of the old. D:2.3
Most of you are aware of having at least some role in the creation of your life. You may feel that at times God has intervened, or that at times you have been a victim of fate, but you are also aware of the role you have had in your own life, primarily as you have reached maturity and begun to make choices. While it has just been said that you will create in unity and relationship much as you “created” during the separation, your creation in unity and relationship will be free of choice. Creation in unity and relationship is creation within the embrace of the All of All. How can you choose when what you create is everything? D:Day 35.21
Dear Mari!
The books from your hand has really transformed my life. I’m so grateful!
Thank you so much.
How lovely to hear from you, Gunnel. I appreciate you sharing with me.
Mari, sometimes when I “hear” myself, I am surprised at the wisdom and kindness that flows out. Listening to ourselves is also about realizing that Divine Consciousness resides within too and rejoicing.
Dear Paula, As you are one of the people who speaks with wisdom and kindness to me, I am not surprised. Listening goes both ways for me also. Sometimes I surprise myself!
Thank you Mari for this. It resonates so much with ” my life “.
Dear Truze, my reply to you ended up down below.
Thank You Mari for sharing. Perfect timing for me to hear. Blessings
Wow the depth of one’s heart the tenderness and how sensitive we are to the human amd divine aspects of our selves. This resonates thank you for sharing your heart to another. We are One Mind. One heart.
Dear Brett, I appreciate your heart and tenderness as well. And like with Truze, I’m always glad to hear that what I’ve expressed “resonates.
Dear Truze, it is always the things I hesitate to share that seem to find the people to whom they will resonate. Thank you for responding in this way.
Danny, thank you for speaking of “perfect timing.” In your response that is true for me as well.
Danny, my reply to you, also ended up down below.